feeling guilty
2003-07-17, 10:34 a.m.

I'm still hanging in there. Didn't talk to MyLove last night about anything deep. She was very very quiet all night and I asked her what was wrong, she just said she wasn't feeling well. To me it seems that she's depressed and she's got something weighing heavily on her mind. I just wish she'd talk to me about it.

I sent an email to a crush that I have. I'd been on the same email list as her for a few months now. I'd viewed her profile and kept tabs on all her posts. She seemed like a very warm, funny, and attractive person. So, I emailed her today.

I feel guilty that I did that. But I just felt drawn to her. I just want to strike up a friendship first anyway. There is no harm in that right? Yes, I am trying to talk myself out of my guilt. So far, it's not working.

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