I can do nothing if I want to
2003-10-21, 8:34 a.m.

I stayed up way too late last night playing book worm. But it's been a long time since I did that. Just vegged on the computer and did nothing else.

At one point though I started thinking, "there is something I should be doing," or "there's someone I should be calling." Finally I told myself to just shut up because I don't have to do anything. It's actually okay for me to sit on the computer and play a game!

Why is that such a hard concept for me to hang on to? The fact that I am my own damn person and I can do what I want when I want. I used to know that a few months ago, but at some point I lost it. But I've got it back again. Now, if I can only just keep that thought with me always.

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